There is a lot to think about really, so many things cross my mind on a regular basis. I did think about it recently, I gave it an entire day. I think I came up with one simple want in my life.

Freedom. Freedom from being constrained of my own time and finances. I don't want to apply for a leave, before I can spend time with my loved ones. I also don't want to miss an opportunity of being with my loved ones just because I don't have the financial means for solving the money problem. Distance is a money problem, health is one too.

The more I think about it, I realise how hard it actually is. I think this is the hardest thing to achieve in life. Every living thing on this planet, wants you to obey and do their bidding. Whether it is a job, or even a relationship. Submitting to someone isn't bad inherently, but submitting to someone you don't want to? I cannot do that.

I would obey what the love of my life says, but not my Boss. I hate the concept of a boss, and the world has normalised it. I have met exactly 0 Bosses in my life who actually cared about their employee. They just do it to a certain extent. The power dynamics is insane. If they had to choose between you going out on a date vs them going out, they will make you stay a 100% of the times.

Similar to time freedom, I have lost a lot to Financial Freedom. Meeting that friend, going on that trip to see a mountain range, gifting something to my sister. Taking away all the fears of someone's life. I wanted to do all of these at a certain point, but I just could not. I want to be spontaneous in my life, and it comes at a cost.

One more thing I have been thinking about is my internal freedom. Freedom from being angry, anxious, unhappy with my own self. I want the ability to forgive myself for my mistakes. But this is a life-long nut to crack and I have no idea how to get there.

This article is not about how will I get it, this is about me clearly defining what I want in my life. And I have clearly done that.